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[johnjohn21]

Ok, well clearly I am just a crazy person who needs anti depressants and therapy. That’s a tough one to grasp, but if you say it as well as all the others, then maybe it’s true. I just have the hardest time believing I manifested these symptoms using my own head (the one on my neck).

I just have one reply then, I won’t need to use two.

My final thoughts and questions are as follows:
I realize I may have screwed up with the anti virals. I’ve read conflicting reports about when to start anti virals. On one hand I wanted to let my body build a response to it (if I had it), as well as staying clear for an antibody test, but on the other hand I read that you can “dummy” the virus if anti virals are taken soon after infection so the virus is not as strong in the long term.

Also the biggest piece to this puzzle, and a piece I have kept from you due to wanting to remain completely anonymous is that I have gotten together with a girl I have been friends with since we were little kids. She knows that I think I may have an STI – particularly herpes, and says she accepts the risk. Problem is I don’t think she sees it as a serious risk and thinks I am being paranoid. Therefore she is not actually accepting the real risk. Or maybe that is the real risk because again, I’m being crazy. I just cannot give this to her and that is my number one priority over anything. Over any doctor telling me I’m crazy or over giving in to my urges to finally become intimate with her. This was another reason I started on the anti – virals. I wanted to have sex with her finally and I felt that I should be on anti virals just in case to help prevent spreading it to her. I don’t think I can keep holding off from sex until 16 weeks. I don’t think she can. I bought myself a few more days but she is expecting intimacy. I can wear condoms but I want to make sure I am being extremely safe.

What is your take on this detail and situation?

As far as responding to your other points:
I do not have a rash anywhere nor have I this entire time. Just itching and occasionally a rash-like feeling to skin that appears to be perfectly normal.

The only thing I have are those spots that look like freckles (but more faint and are brown) on my glans as well as my foreskin. And if this were fungal wouldn’t the pills have taken care of it? The 2 pills I took one week apart? I could have been more religious about the lamisil though. I only used it for about a week and a half and sometimes just once a day.

to wrap this up is:
What do you recommend I do from here out?
I know I need to go see someone for my mental health. This has been eating me alive like you said.
Anything else?

Also I stopped the anti-viral pills, meaning I woke up this am and did not take any, nor do I plan on taking anymore due to your advice.

Should I wait until after 16 weeks now to be safe and accurate with my testing? How many days of anti-virals would typically screw with the antibody test?

Well that is all my crazy brain can come up with. I will be awaiting your response and hopefully an answer to those couple concerns I have had after your initial response.

I will take the information and use it to finally move forward.

Thank you Terri