February 28, 2015 at 12:44 am #5249

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To be honest I am always a bit worrisome of the worst case scenerio happening to me. The fact that I didn’t think my actions through before they happened is what is eating me up the most. Even while at the std clinic when I was filling out paper work the small indentation from the pen on my finger made me freak out for about 5 mins in the waiting room until I realized I was being overly ridiculous with this speculation and it was just from the pen. I haven’t masturbated in months now; partially because I have been depressed, mainly because I was scared of autoinnoculation.
I know the only thing that matches up with herpes in this scenerio is the timetable (kind of) and maybe the initial skin spot. There were about 3 or 4 actions I did prior to the spot showing up that could have caused it not to mentioned they could have all been partially to blame.

1. herpes sores wouldn’t continue to peel outward normally, correct?

2. Pain associated with herpes shouldn’t stop when the sore shows up, Right? My pain in my finger pretty much subsided when it did and the pain was at my knuckles and my fingertip. The finger tip pain was close to the spot but closer to center of my finger’s cuticle which was likely being irritated by my poking and fudging with my finger as well as from the alcohol. Again the actual sore was painless. I only say sore because I don’t know what else to call it, it was just a spot with the top layer of skin Peeled off but not raw.

3. The hangnail I was speaking of earlier if infected probably wouldn’t have healed up fine intially? (I am concerned because the second patch that rubbed off led directly over where my hang nail was but this showed up about 6 or so days after the intial patch with at least 9-10 days of alcohol irritating it and probably 14 or so days after the hangnail initially healed.)

4.This whole issue was located on a writer’s bump I have on my finger which is another reason why I think it was trauma rather than herpes magically staying on a localized portion of my finger that always protrudes a bit making it even more noticable. Not to mention the exact spot I was staring at for about 10 days obsessively.

5.I will try and make this my last post and attempt to not be so depressed and maybe have fun with friend again. If anything should come up in my future testing I may be back to clarify it. I am at about 9 weeks now. I will try and take the 12 as confirmation of your’s and my nurse’s diagnosis that that this doesn’t look or sound herpes. Maybe I’ll go back at 16 weeks but that will be for 100 % certainty.

Thanks for your patience with me and this whole situation. I have just been feeling so helpless.

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