Reply To: Depressed and Confused

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Terri:

Thank you for the kind words. I am just trying to figure out how to proceed now. Since I have been asymptomatic all this time (and only asked for the blood test because of my suspicions about someone I was involved with) is there a chance I could continue to be asymptomatic? Are there people who test positive blood wise but never have breakouts? I am worried now about what to expect.

Also – Honestly, I don’t think I am going to be sexually involved again for a long, long time. There are only a few years left in terms of my fertility – Do those books explain how to be responsible if you meet someone and want to have a child with them, but are worried about infecting them (or the child)? I think that is my biggest concern. The only reason I think about it is because there are only a few baby making years left, if that ever is an option.

And finally, as you said, there is no way to know how long I have had this, as I have never had symptoms. I highly suspect it is this one person because I used protection in other cases. I don’t speak to this person anymore for various serious reasons, this possibly being one of them. Do I contact them to tell them about my test results? I am not sure it would end in more than me being blamed or in them denying it.

Thank you again. I hope my questions are clear. I am kind of distraught right now and am going to see a therapist this afternoon for help.