I’m afraid the OCD started just as soon as I was diagnosed. I am doing my best but it feels like I’m sinking more and more every day. I do have an appoint for CBT, but it is not for a few weeks… Due to the OCD, I just cannot let go of the “what if” of me possibly having contracted this orally and just not knowing… I have been too scared to drink even, worrying about any possible run off from my mouth touching my hands on the cup. I’m worried about any pimple I get. I don’t know how to function.
Is it possible to have contracted this with initial infection almost a decade ago and just never have an initial or any oral outbreak?
I don’t even know how transmission would work if I did somehow have this orally. I worry anytime I drool/sneeze/cough around my baby. I am so sorry to bother you with this. I would just like to know so I can put this behind me and be a good mom to my baby.