Clippers could have an issue with bacterial infections like staph or strep but I have zero concerns about the clippers and the transmission of STI to your son. You’ve tested seven times??? I think HSV transmission is likely here because you report here as having HSV 2 and that is very rarely oral and she only gave oral sex to you and you say you already have that, is that right?. Most adults acquire HVP at some point in their lives, so you may have also, at some point.
At any rate, I do not think the clipper situation should be any concern to you.
Your thoughts of suicide concern me greatly – I hope you will seek mental health counseling as soon as possible for this concern
Terri