Thank you so much, it means a lot even though I don’t feel very proud of myself. I feel a lot of shame and guilt, and am still terrified that I will someday pass HSV to my husband and kids, who will further autoinoculate other parts of them and that will pass it to other members of my family.
Just to clarify, you had said in a previous post that I should share things with my husband and kids and kiss them when I don’t have an outbreak correct? I want to be able to kiss them and share things with them again. Actually, I am already and that’s what my OCD treatment is having me do. Because I may infect everyone I may not, they may get it from someone’s else too or school.
If/when I get another outbreak, am I able to take a shower without fear of it passing to my genitals if water drips down from touching my sore and then touching my genitals or any other open wound on my body? I am afraid that if I have to take care of my kids, and help them
Brush their teeth or feed them, I can subsequently get it back in my hands. These are all hypotheticals in my mind, and I fear for them and a still working on it all.
I don’t want these thoughts to take over my life anymore and I am doing my best to get through them.