Thank you for all the information Terri, I truly appreciate it.
Can I get your advice on something?
I am trying to control my OCD and anxiety, and therefore do not want to be touching and looking every second. The other night I went to the ER because a spot on my anus stung but I couldn’t see if it was a tear or not. The doctor said she didn’t see anything and that it was probably a tear that was now healing. She told me to put hydroctisone and lidocaine on it and I did. The next morning the pain was gone. Obviously logic tells me this couldn’t be herpes if the medicine helped, correct?
I wouldn’t need to look for a herpes outbreak, correct? Like, with herpes you would know something is not right down there, you don’t need to go looking for it, correct?
Also, I was thinking about just asking my partner if his penis ever touched my private parts that way I can just put this misery to bed. I’m literally waking up with anxiety every day from this exposure and I didn’t even have sex. It kills me. I just don’t want my partner to think I am a lunatic and crazy. Should i just ask him?